A not yet new beginning.

So, its April already. (:
Had a tough couple of weeks, but its okay.
Its either I face it, or I die.

Whats for sure is, I'm still confused.
Maybe, I should really move on. Like really.
No matter how much it hurts. & i know, I've been through worst.
I'll not be looking, I'll be waiting. Who knows, the person you love,
but you just didn't realize it, is infront of you? Who knows.

Oh & you know what, I broke a few hearts in 4 months. Pro no? Hah.
I feel the guilt. I guess, its getting better. But jealousy strikes again.
Not to me though.
They say, I broke their hearts so many times. & I keep apologizing.
But is it worth it, if I don't even know the reason why?
I told them what I had to. & .... forget it.

What about my heart?


Yeah, fine. I have a strong heart now. But it still can crack you know.
I crushed my last one till I had to die and live again.
I'm like, I'm sorry I broke your heart. I'm sorry for what I said, what I did. I'm sorry.
But they never knew, I'm hurting more. Do you?
The guy who realizes, who cares, cares about my heart more than his, sacrifices his love for others,
thats the guy. Who will appear right infront of my eyes. One day.
And I have to move onnnnn like very soon. I just need a new beginning.


Anyways, forget bout that.
I have a new boyfriend? haha.
He's charming. He doesn't over react. He's cute. He cares. He's loyal. Sometimes, he's lost.
I think he knows what I mean. (:
1st April 2011 .. ? Seriously? Lmao.
ohwell, blablabla. I love him, yknow?
Only we know the truth, of our relationship. relationship.
Kyle Nicholas Hon. ♥




Just because,
Mas

Sorry for the dead blog.

Its february 2011, people.
Sedayans are better than tenbians I guess.
& I'm busy like heck since january. Had alot of stuffs to do. Still have some too.
I miss my best friend. I miss SOME tenbians.
Only those who don't forget the people who left.
Like Rayan. He's just amazing.
Oh well, I'm too lazy to update nowadays.

just because,
Mas

Another.

I can say, our connection is falling apart.
But I don't know, cause this happened awhile before.
& it didn't change.
But boy, it was fun. Thank you.
I still want to meet you though. Cause now its 2011, we didn't see each other for 3 years already.
Oh god, I miss you.
One day, it'll happen.

;
Hazzique doesn't have his phone again.
& here goes the days without my best friend, again.

;
Sedaya is fine. I tried laying low but what the heck it ain't working.
So, I'll just go with the flow.
I have to concentrate on my studies. For me, and my parents.
After all they've did for me.


p.s I won't be updating for awhile. sorry for the partially dead blog.

Just because,
Mas

2011.

Its 2011. And when it reaches 1/1/11, I didn't feel a thing. (:
Cause its just another year, another day. I have been through it for years.
Today is, 2/1/11.
And tomorrow's school?
Ask me if I'm ready, I'll say, I'm born ready.


Just because,
Mas

Kapir. I had enough of them. (: