Seen.

What is going on?

I bet, you lied.

Don't go all sweet with me.

It's pointless.

Why say it when you don't mean it?

You're wasting my time.

You're wasting your energy.

I was listening,

to your lies.

She Believed.

Yeah, it seems true.

I believe in that.

All this thoughts,

are leaving you tonight.

I feel abandoned, when you go for her,

when I was experiencing a problem.

I appreciate that.

Cause you make me see,

how you really are.

Just because,

Mas

Resistance.

It hurts to see somebody you love, with somebody else no?

You might be in a different situation.

There's two of them.

One is, liking somebody that has another person who likes her too.

Second is, you're the middle person who is loved by two different person.

Both situations are complicating.

But believe me,

the second one, is more harder.

That doesn't matter anymore.

Now,

I thought I was falling for you.

After awhile,

I think I shouldn't.

I resist.

For some reason,

I see no difference in you with the others.

I'm not scared to get heartbroken.

I'm just brave enough to let go of love at the moment.

I tried ignoring you,

I just can't.

I keep telling myself to lay off for a bit.

But you keep appearing.

I say, we might be only friends.

Owh wait, we are.

I'm sorry if I've been acting like a jerk.

Its just that, I'm scared I'll fall for you.

Eventhough I do, you wouldn't catch me at all.

Cause you've got somebody else. I assume.

Believe me,

I'm brave enough to let go.

Don't ask me if I'm okay,

as its obvious that I'm not.

I'm not looking for somebody else.

I just want a friend who mean what he says.

For example,

"no matter what happens, I'll always be there for you."

I want somebody who actually mean it.

Somebody who could act as a true friend, a brother that would always be there for me

if I breakdown.

I don't talk much nowadays.

Nobody knows why.

I don't tell people.

As I can't even believe thats the reason.

Don't ask me why,

I turn speechless.

Just because,

Mas.

Questions.

If I cry , 

would the clouds join me?

If I smile ,

can the sun shine?

If I lie ,

will you bleed?

I have questions.

what if I fail to accept facts?

what if I am not finish with him?

what if I try to kill?

But I know,

this is who I really am.

I don't get influenced easily.

I don't trust people easily.

I don't love easily.

And why is this?

I just learnt from what I did.

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Its not right to blame.

especially when you're inferring to somebody who used to be precious in your life.

Don't say she is a mistake you made.

Do not regret she was in your life.

Saying somebody that used to be somebody is just .. cold.

Pain within is what they get.

Trust me,

do not blame them or call them a mistake.

It doesn't change anything anyways.

What past, is past.

So move on with life.

Just because,

Mas

Young.

Even when I was young,

I write stuff like this.

For 4 years , I forgotten that I did.

Till tomorrow's yesterday, I found my old blogspot.

I wrote stuff about life and love.

I was 10. Then I know,4 years has passed.

Now I'm thinking, no wonder I write stuff that comes from deep within me.

Is it just me or does time flies like lightning strikes?

I noticed, they're childish .

But atleast, I did write something about life when I was younger.

And now, I'm continuing what I started. In a more mature way.

Love is like a dove flying together.

If you break them,

you will never see your love again.

Every person on earth have

their partners.

Believe it, your partner is walking on earth

at this moment.

This is called destiny.

If you bring your heart to

a beautiful scenery,

your heart will be crying.

Even it is a moderate scene,

you will smile .

A kiss even a small one is

a miracle from god.

That miracle can be the

sweetest moment for you.

You should be thankful to god

for his kindness to give you be in

heaven to feel this sweet situation.

 I was 10 when I wrote that. remember.

Just because,

Mas.

Connect.

Liking is easy.

Loving is hard.

Leaving is easy.

Staying is hard.

Faith is hard to find.

Lies are easy to find.

"Where did you go?

Look at you now.

You're just a shadow of an angel I found."

"I tried to call you but nobody's home.

I didn't know this till you went away.

I'm always a day too late."

"I'll never be perfect.

I'll never be cool.

I'll always be nothing unless I'm with you."

"Will I find someone for me,

 to give me air so I can breathe.

Is there anyone out there,

who love me for me."

They just connect , I suppose.

Just because,

Mas

Cherish.

Cherish every moment you have.

The future is unpredictable.

I hate it too.

Just because,

zikness

Dangerous.

Words.

They can be dangerous.

Very Dangerous.

It could kill anybody.Either its inside or out.

They can be Knives.

Guns.

Bow and Arrow.

Blades.

Any sharp or killing materials.

Those are intense words.

But no matter what words come out from somebody's mouth.

I learnt that we should ignore.

Unless, just unless, its over-reacted words.

That, we have to take action.

Just because,

Mas.

Stop.

Try not to allow anything to haunt you for too long.

Life goes on and you have to move on.

Your negativity don't only affect your life,

it affects the people around you.

Smile girl, smile.

Life's too short to keep on emo-ing,

start enjoying how wonderful life is.

Just because,

zikness

Regret.

I never meant to do those things to you.

I didn't know you'd mean so much to me.

I want to say I regret, for knowing you.

But I can't.

A good friend of mine said to me :

"Life's too short to regret. Even if you regret, it won't change a thing.Stop regretting what you did."

And Yes,

I do think its true.

Very ... True.

Wouldn't it be superb if we could rewind and do things back again?

Just to make things right.

Well, for me it will.

Intentionally, I live my life the way I want it to be.

Dreams , Memories , Sorrow.

I guess, its normal in life.

Dreams can come true.

Memories can't be deleted.

Sorrow can be deeply painful.

Somehow,

Life and soul are the most best combination ever.

Without them,

Humans won't exist.

Inspiration from :

Hazik.♥

Just because,

Mas.

Just Leave.

You. have. no. rights. to. judge. me.

You could, when you still believe in yourself.

Well, you don't anymore.

You look at it from a wrong side.

You chose the wrong path.

One day,

you'll going to regret.

You'll wake up thinking about how much pain you gave.

Your heart turned black.

Your mind chose stupid.

Your eyes are blinded.

The words that come out of your mouth,

stabs like a knife.

Just because,

Mas.