Cry

Shed a tear.

Cry out Loud.

It may be the best way to recover.

Deep inside,

my tears are drowned.

It cuts me like a knife,

when you walked out of my life.

I don't usually break down and get pissed 

for some small reason.

But nowadays,

I just have to

as I can't take the disappointment

and frustation in anything anymore.

Its not that I want to cry.

Its just hard to resist.

Those days,

I keep my tears within.

I resisted myself from crying.

But sometimes,

just sometimes

I have to let it go.

No matter how small the problem is.

"Once upon a time, there was a girl and a boy named Lucy and Drake.

They used to be close friends, best friends. And then, they fell for each other.

Drake confessed to Lucy. Then Lucy did too.

In 4 months, like any other relationships, there were full of sorrowness and

sweetness. But one day,

they both decided that, they should just be friends back.

Drake promises, that he would find another guy for Lucy.

And Lucy promised the same thing to Drake.

Just suddenly, Drake changed.

Lucy was hurt.

He broke all his promises that he have made.

He backstabs Lucy.

Lucy was depressed, frustrated and emotional.

She shed a tear. but not much.

She kept her tears deep within. Honestly, they were drowning her slowly.

And one day, just because of a small matter,

her close friend forgotten to put her name in a note.

She cried. Its not really a big deal, and she did not actually want to cry.

She just couldn't resist it.

Pain is what she feel. That easily. That fast.

First, nobody knows why. Including her.

But after a few incidents,

she noticed what is the reason.

All of them are connected to her horrible flashbacks.

Now she knows. Now she sees.

Now, she chose to break down and cry out loud when

something really painful occur to her either inside or out. 

Rather than crying out loud

because of some small matter.

And if she didn't make that decision,

she would be drowned by her own tears by now."

What's happening? I'm losing grip.

I've got the symptoms of a broken hearted girl.

So forgive me, if I get emotional sometimes.

In this condition, I could do anything terrible that I could ever do

I just stop myself as I am brave enough to do that.

I tried to stay away and don't cry.

At the end, it failed.

I was a victim. Forgive me.

Just because,

Mas