Bloody Hell.

I despise liars.

Owh wait.

Forgive me.

I just know when you're lying. 

Thanks.

I'm an experienced person.

In almost all of this situation.

Comprende?

So yeah. I do know what you said is right or not.

Just because,

Mas

Make.

There's always a reason why,
they didn't make it to our future.
I know who will be there,
but I'm not sure if its forever.

Just because,
Mas

Impurities

Everyone's got impurities .
We all can't be perfect .
Truth is nobody is .
The cause of these are the impurities .
How'd impurities get about ?
It starts when we stop trusting .
Well that's one of them .
Or when we just believe the lies .
Or when someone criticizes us and we live with it .
Seriously ,
We are us .
Not you .

And i'm being pessimistic a bit .
Because I can ,
Andy .

Combination.

I'm the pessimist. I'm the realist. I breakdown unstably.
Forgive me if I hurt you in a way.
Well, my words stab like a knife too. Moreover, I am a pessimist.
I look the negative sides of things. Optimists are the opposite.
There's always a reason why a pessimist, is a pessimist.
Optimists can see it. They just don't know the reason why.

So, there's this guy who would cheer me up when he's suppose to be down.
Literally, he is an optimist. Not an pessimist, like me.
He sees the positive side of things. I'm the opposite.

"Optimists say roses shows love and pride. Pessimists say it dies and has thorns."

That's an example of both sides.

That guy I'm talking about.
That guy I love.
That guy who has been there for me.
That optimist.
He is Andrew.
I am Mas.
He is an optimist. I'm a pessimist and a realist.

Believe it or not, we would be there for each other no matter what.
And we're the opposite of each other.
He said, "opposite attracts"
Do I believe in that? Is it true?
Yeah. I do. Its working. Yeah, I think so too byy.
We're a perfect combination.♥


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                                                                                 Mas

Pretends 2.

Pretend that a pessimist is correct.

Even if there's a reason,

only an optimist can see.

Lets pretend that there's none.

At least,

misunderstanding would decrease.

Just because,

zikness

Pretends.

Lets pretend like its the past
like Im eating cream-o at the cafeteria
I was suppose to be the optimist like he said
But I never gonna make it as depressions lead changes
Lets pretend like I never ever meet these guy
And when I spit jokes everybody go insane
And everybody know my name
And everywhere I have friends
Until one day two asshole appears
Fill my life with depressions and sorrow
Swear that I wont do the same mistake
Lets pretend wrong meaning leads to wrong relationships
Lets pretend wrong relationships lead to break ups
Lets pretend break ups lead to depression
Lets pretend depression leads to changes
Lets use imaginations.

Now lets pretend like this never happened
Like I never been hurt and became emo
Like I didnt write intense deep things known emo
Like I never used to cut my wrist and be emo
Now lets pretend like it was all-good
That I know this one guy that is awesomely special
That I never ever thought that we would be so click
That I always spit my things to him
That I always thought that he understands
Now lets pretend like I aint got a name
Before they ever called me Mas with the surname Rosli
Before all the things above are written
Before I'm hurt by the guy like him
Before I became such pessimist
Before I ever meet the two assholes
Before they ever notice my existence
I guess pretending is the best way

Now lets pretend everything he said is just bullshit
Lets pretend things wouldve been no different
Pretend people procrastinated had no motivation
Pretend he just made excuses that so he's pretending
Pretend he makes no sense just to play the game
Pretend he's just listening and dun understand
Pretend he's my best friend or just not even friend
Why the fuck he pretends and break promises
He wasnt socially awkard and just a weird kid
He had a father and his mother wasnt crazy as shit
He made me believe what Ive been told
Fuck all the dramas and quit with the shits
Youre just full of shits and words dont make sense
You want me to be optimist when facing life shits
It just ain't realistic.
Now pretend that Im really pissed at your bullshits
And theres no way Im gonna trust to the bullshits
And when I'm pissed you got all types of bullshits
You got a hard time explaning cause all of them are bullshits
I regret all this while i trusted your bullshits
Now lets pretend I don't even know you.


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                                                                 Unknown*

Thats it.

1. He lied.
2. He broke his promises.
3. He changed into a jerk.

I told Sam,

" I don't want to say this, but..

I want the old him back."

I told her..the whole story.

Sad, Complicating, Frustrating, Depressing.

But yet,

it used to be,

Sweet, Ecstatic, Romantic, Amazing.

Yeah, it's sad to see somebody who used to be the one

in your life changed into a jerk and talks about you behind your back.

This is so Sad.

Just because,

Mas

Look.

I might be over-rated.

Maybe not.

Have I fallen in love with anybody?

Good friends, best friends, someone new.

Hell no. Precautions are needed. 

A girl who falls for anybody?

Thats not me. Maybe used to be.

It doesn't matter as long I'm supported,

by people who love me for who I am.

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There's this guy who,

literally look emotional.

Maybe possible he has a memory loss in remembering stuff.

Blur case, i told him.

He doesn't give a damn about small problems.

He doesn't pick sides if there are any arguements.

Yeah, those are his style. 

I like the way he gives the "look" when 

he sees somebody as a greeting.

I told him, it was seducing. And hell yeah, it is.

Who is he? 

Yeah, my current fiancee. aha

He is, Sean Tan Xiao Han.♥




Just because,
Mas

Jon.

I’ve got words I’d like you to hear, words that may sound unclear, words that I truly feel, words that somehow may heal. Though it’s not a big deal, I miss you and it’s for real.

This is what he randomly sent me.

Then he got to go off. 

Yeah, I miss you too 

Jonathan Quah. 

Just because,

Mas

Day.

How does a life works?
What does it have?
What would happen to
people who have a life?
For short,
everybody has a life.
What happen to them everyday?

Theres billions of people on earth.
And yet, all of us only know 3 percent maximum
of the people live on earth.
Everyday,
something will happen to all of us
in the same day.
Some, at the same time.
When it comes to judgement day.
it would be the same.

"Life Offers Daily Crap."

Something bad I suppose?
Yeah.
Its true. I know.
Life is so unpredictable.
But we all know some stuff happen, everyday.
We just don't know what will.


Inspiration by,
Ryan Lee.♥




Just because,
Mas

It.

Take note.

I'm a pessimist.

I might break you.

Not all the time. Just certain.

I learnt my lesson. Thats why.

I'm realistic. Pessimistic is the right word, they said.

I could be optimistic. too.

Just because,

Mas

Vein.

You're in my brain.
It feels like a needle in my vein.
This needle in my vein
is making pain.

Why am I in this again?
I shouldn't be.
I tried to quit.
I got to get it out of my brain.
I'm no good.
Something keeps holding me back.
Holding me back.


Just because,
Mas

Mi Manchi

Why am I doing this?

aha. I know. Its dumb.

What can I do,

when I see you looking at me.

Especially when we both do.

By accident.

Comprende?

It hurts to know

that you and I

used to be it.

It hurts to know

that you and I

are now, nothing.

I still have no answers to my questions.

I still have doubts.

Curiousity is still spinning in my mind.

Why did you have to do such things?

To me.

I moved on and leave yours alone,

atleast.

All I have to say and think about what has past is,

Te Extrano. Mi Manchi.

That is it. I do not talk pain about you.

Until you did. Atleast.

I clearly said,

that you were a mistake.

A huge one.

But I take it back.

Know why?

Because even if i do say you were a mistake,

nothing will happen or change anything back.

I regretted, I took it back.

Nothing will change if i said those words.

NOTHING.

I miss the old you. fullstop.

Just because,

Mas

Contribution.

I got it all.

See?

But I don't got you.

I've got a million guys,

but none of them touched my heart.

I've got hats and caps to match.

I've got rings and necklaces.

Theres one thing is hard to find,

I'm looking for a perfect match.

I wanted you to know,

that I want you.

Sayang,

we aren't meant to be.

Comprende?

Stop playing around with my emotions

as you know you're not the one.

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Going back.

Remember how we used to talk for hours?

Be right next to each other,

everytime.

We were the sweetest one of all.

But now,

we're like best enemies.

It break me to pieces as I changed to a whole new person,

and I moved on.

And still, you want to break me again.

It contributes pain to me.

So please just stop and move on with your pathetic life.

Just because,

Mas

No Forever.

Would it be fair?

If we break our own fantasy and face the reality.

Fairy tales usually start with “once upon a time” and end with

 “and they lived happily ever after”. 

But for us it’s “they lived happily ever after once upon a time”.

Comprende?

I do. And its true.

Fairy Tales are scenes in our life.

They exist in reality.

But not forever. 

Forever in love,

Rarely exist.

The love songs in the radios,

itunes,limewire,youtube.

They're full of fantasies. 

Fairy Tales, you know.

Only some of them exist in reality.

Inspiration by,

Jonathan Quah.♥

Just because,

Mas

Wrong.

I made the wrong decision.

It was a mistake. And I regret.

But regretting don't change anything right?

Yeah. Pointless. So don't regret.

I'm proud to get heartbroken and knowing the truth.

Without it,

I am still the stupid little girl who keeps making wrong

decision in love.

.Currently.

I'm stuck in between again.

But believe me,

I made myself believe that I'm not.

I know how to differentiate.

So don't play with me. I know what are your intentions.

I'm with myself.

And all other people who are there for me.

Who really are.

I can't tell who are my real friends.

I could but safety precautions are needed first.

Before, I get broken. again.

Do not judge me.

Anytime. Anywhere.

Mind your own business.

I only tell certain people whats wrong.

You're lucky if you're in the list.

I don't give a damn if you call me anything.

Emo. Slut. Bitch.

Its shocking how I don't give a damn.

I just pity you guys . Simply Lifeless.

So please, get a life.

If you over did it,

you will hate yourself.

I will make your life hell.

Just because,

Mas

There.

 I could tell how much happiness

are there in this emotional drama.

This message in depression,

shows how much love, you miss.

Understand it. Please.

" Happiness consists of Love and Awesomeness"

True.Yet Frustrating.

Can Happiness survive without Love?

It might be possible. but difficult.

Love is not only for a double relationship.

Usually, people talk about love. in a wrong way.

So wrong. Alot of mistakes.

Believe me. They just thought they know what's the meaning of love.

When they actually don't.

Its frustrating for people who knows about it,

to look at people who acts like they do.

Comprende?

Yeah. Frustrating.

Wrong meaning leads to wrong relationships.

Wrong relationships lead to break ups.

Break Ups lead to Depression.

Depression leads to change.

Inspiration by,

Nicholas Low.♥

Just because,

Mas

Andy

He is there if I broke down.

He is there when the others try to ruin my life.

He makes me smile in a way.

If it wasn't for him,

the days, I broke down

will be worst then it was.

I could do something stupid to myself.

Something that would hurt myself.

And I would do that, on purpose.

But I didn't.

Because of some people.

And he, is one of them.

He is my byy.

He is Andrew Tan Wen Yan.

Dedicated to him.

The guy who acts like my dad.

My hubby.

My byy.♥

He is there, for me.

Just because,

Mas

Cry

Shed a tear.

Cry out Loud.

It may be the best way to recover.

Deep inside,

my tears are drowned.

It cuts me like a knife,

when you walked out of my life.

I don't usually break down and get pissed 

for some small reason.

But nowadays,

I just have to

as I can't take the disappointment

and frustation in anything anymore.

Its not that I want to cry.

Its just hard to resist.

Those days,

I keep my tears within.

I resisted myself from crying.

But sometimes,

just sometimes

I have to let it go.

No matter how small the problem is.

"Once upon a time, there was a girl and a boy named Lucy and Drake.

They used to be close friends, best friends. And then, they fell for each other.

Drake confessed to Lucy. Then Lucy did too.

In 4 months, like any other relationships, there were full of sorrowness and

sweetness. But one day,

they both decided that, they should just be friends back.

Drake promises, that he would find another guy for Lucy.

And Lucy promised the same thing to Drake.

Just suddenly, Drake changed.

Lucy was hurt.

He broke all his promises that he have made.

He backstabs Lucy.

Lucy was depressed, frustrated and emotional.

She shed a tear. but not much.

She kept her tears deep within. Honestly, they were drowning her slowly.

And one day, just because of a small matter,

her close friend forgotten to put her name in a note.

She cried. Its not really a big deal, and she did not actually want to cry.

She just couldn't resist it.

Pain is what she feel. That easily. That fast.

First, nobody knows why. Including her.

But after a few incidents,

she noticed what is the reason.

All of them are connected to her horrible flashbacks.

Now she knows. Now she sees.

Now, she chose to break down and cry out loud when

something really painful occur to her either inside or out. 

Rather than crying out loud

because of some small matter.

And if she didn't make that decision,

she would be drowned by her own tears by now."

What's happening? I'm losing grip.

I've got the symptoms of a broken hearted girl.

So forgive me, if I get emotional sometimes.

In this condition, I could do anything terrible that I could ever do

I just stop myself as I am brave enough to do that.

I tried to stay away and don't cry.

At the end, it failed.

I was a victim. Forgive me.

Just because,

Mas